09 December, 2011


mixed feelings. the beginning of the day was really disappointing, but in the morning everything seemed better, the afternoon was getting better too. But then the evening come and every happiness was just a blur.

well, whatever. overall, i wanna thank my very best friends who really made me glad today. Nadhila Mischa Miranda and Nindhita Putrie Prabaswari :') you girls are the best...huhu cheesy -_- but i really thank you guys for being there for me whenever i feel sad or confuse or happy or need an advice. you always listen to my problem which is never changed :') lame. well, i need to find a new problem, i guess haha.

so, thank God i was turning 16 today. i've been through so much thing this year. i learned a lot and i hope i could be a better person as i grow older now.

thanks for all your birthday wishes, birthday greetings, handshakes and bad pictures of me as your bbm display picture :) i really appreciate it!

oh, btw i decided to stay in Jakarta this holiday. gonna do some stuffs and decorate my room. wish me luck~

02 December, 2011

Explosion Box : One of My Holiday Tasks


I just want to share my current interest in crafts, specially scrapbooks. Well, the fact is I found out about scrapbook for the first time about 3 years ago when I was still in junior high school. I read it from a magazine. And a few days later I found out that one of my friend took a course to make scrapbooks. Since then, I really wanted to learn about it. But I didn't know where to find the supplies, like papers, stickers, and also the tools. My friend told me that she got all the supplies from a scrapbook supplies store which is so far away from my house and school. And because of I got no further information about it & no time to really care (due to the national exam), I forgot about it.

But, a week ago, I was browsing on youtube and suddenly I found a scrapbook video. After few hours of spending my time in front of the computer watching many videos about arts and crafts, I found a video about explosion box. It's a kind of scrapbook but shaped like a box. It's really cool. When you open the lid of the box, the inside box will pop out. That's why it is called explosion box or exploding box. And now I'm dying to make at least one of it. This thing is so going to be on my holiday-activities-list! We'll see if I accomplished it or not.

Catch you later!

27 November, 2011

I'm Feeling Talkative Right Now

It's 10 pm already. I'm still holding my pencil while biting its tip sometimes. My eyes are down to the paper full of circle equations and charts and lot of numbers. Yet my brain can't understand any single word written there..

It's been a pretty busy week. I skip 3 days of school in the past 2 weeks for teacher's day preparation and other stuff. And in class, I mostly lost focus. I did some crafts like pop-up papers or drawing stupid things instead of studying. I guess I lost my learning enthusiasm. *sigh* Even today. Whereas the exam week'll be starting tomorrow. Huh.

Enough of school bullshits.

So, btw my birthday is about 12 days ahead. My parents were asking me about what present I want this year. It's such a tradition in my family that the birthday person could ask for anything s/he wants for her/his birthday. For the first time in my life, I haven't decided what my birthday present will be.

Yeah, I'm that type of kids who really excited about their birthday. Who loves presents and suprises and birthday celebrations and also the attentions people give that day. I'm not an attention seeker, but it's great having people wishing you all the best and being very nice to you, right? And it only happen once in a year, that's why I'm so excited about it.

About my birthday gift, I took some times to think about it, and I ended at some options.
1.) Polaroid camera
2.) SLR fisheye/wide angle lens
3.) Another lomography camera
4.) Lots of money to buy clothes
5.) Anything fun to do on the holiday. Maybe a trip to Karimun Jawa? Or somewhere else?

I don't know, 3 of my 5 wishes are related to photography hehe. Well, I'm so interested about photography and crafts lately. Even I already planned if I stayed at home on holiday I'll spend a lot of money to buy crafts tools and make an exploding box album or something like dried flowers for my room decoration. I watched many videos about them on youtube and it showed a lot of fun & creative things to make.

Well, I guess I'm talking too much here hehe. It's 11 pm already. Time flies so fast, doesn't it? Toodles!

08 November, 2011

Buang-buang Waktu~

Udah jam 11an tapi gatau kenapa lagi mood banget buat posting di blog. Kayaknya belakangan ini gue makin nggak tau waktu deh. Bahkan lusa ada ulangan biologi & matematika, tapi hari ini nggak nyicil apa-apa. Besok positif sks (sistem kebut semalam) nih -_- Bukannya nggak mau belajar sih, tapi kondisinya nggak mendukung, gimana dong. Haha alesan banget.

Tapi emang bener! Tadi abis pulang dari bimbel malah ke mall nyari sepatu buat sekolah gara-gara peraturan baru, yang cewek nggak boleh pake flat shoes yang entah kenapa diterjemahin jadi sepatu cantik.. Padahal flat shoes gue udah super duper gembel dan nggak pantes dibilang sepatu 'cantik'. Mungkin emang udah waktunya juga sih ganti sepatu -_- Eh kenapa jadi ngomongin sepatu..

Balik lagi ke minggu kelam buat otak gue. Keliatannya minggu ini tuh bakalan capek banget. Semua kelas XI ulangan biologi, kimia sama matematika dalam seminggu. Sampe ada temen gue yang bilang : marathon tf mipa. Mungkin kedengerannya biasa aja, tapi dengan jadwal matematika dan biologi yang dijadiin sehari dan materinya yg belibet, semuanya jadi terdengar suram. Jadi, nggak salah juga kan hari ini nyantai dulu, biar besok otaknya masih seger & siap diforsir. Alesan lagi.

Yaudah, ini gue baru selesai mandi dan mau tidur, daripada waktu yang kebuang makin banyak, postnya segini aja. Dah.

19 October, 2011

Yeah, I'm in a such whatsoever mood. Bcause people keep being annoying when I just want to be in silence. How could I deal with it? (۳˚Д˚)۳


This part of this post has been deleted.
And better be replaced by a word : "bullshit".

16 October, 2011

Life's Short

I just wanna type a really short post cs I'm in the middle of a Spongebob Squarepants' series hahaha. Well, here I go...

I guess the world's now showing off its rage unto us human. As I can see, so many people around me died in this year. We got punished. Not the people who died. It's us. We got punished by losing the ones we love.


And this also made me realized how close all of us from the death. Nobody could tell when our end is, where it is and how will it be. We should be prepared for everything. So, live your life to the fullest for we will never know when our time will come.


07 October, 2011

Tout Doucement

I was kinda surprised when i saw your blog. Never expected you'll write something there, knowing you're such a lazy-ass -_- And moreover, for me.

So, i just wanna say, i know that it is the best for us. But I don't really know about how i feel inside now. Have i moved on? I can't figure it out...
You had a life. And I don't want to stand in your way, blocking your dreams up.
I'll just wish us all the best in life. Cheerio.

02 October, 2011

Last night I couldn't sleep. And the internet connection went down. So then I putted my earphones on and turn on the music. Sondre Lerche's Stupid Memory was played. The song's lyrics might not fit really well with what I felt or experienced, but this song has been accompanying me through hard times these few days. And now I feel much more better than 2 weeks ago. I am relieved.
I hope I'll found somebody who truly understands me and could help me making good decisions in life. I know I will :) well, thanks ceiling for tonight, you've been a really great friend. I should go now. Gonna face the exam week. Wish me a good luck!

04 September, 2011


Post deleted~
Have a curious day :)

01 September, 2011

Too Boring Means Double Posts Today!

Hi. I'm pretty boring here. Got nothing to do & am not sleepy yet. Well, blame me for having a nap at 6 in the evening 3-|

So, in case of my boringness (that's not an exist word, I know), I'll just write what's in my mind right now.

Okay, now I'm laying in my bed while listening to Sondre Lerche's Say It All. Such a good mood booster song it is. Reminds me of March the 5th 2011, exactly at Java Jazz. The first show I watched that day. With a really good friend, teehee :J good old time...

Now I really wish for Doraemon's "pintu kemana saja". I wanna go back to the past and have a look at the good old times again. And fix all the mistakes I've done in the past.

But, in Doraemon's story, when you changed your past, your future'll be changed, too. And I'm happy enough with my today's life. Soooo, on second thought I don't want to have "pintu kemana saja". #labil

Enough said. I guess.
See you later, ppl~

Happy Holiday

So i found this website befunky.com and edited some photos. It's a kinda fun thing to do when you don't have anything else to do *sigh*

Happy Holiday, people! And have fun with your vacation!

30 August, 2011

If I...

If I had doraemon's magic pocket I'd take the "pintu kemana saja". I'd have a peek on my future. For what will I do, where will I live, whom will I be with and how will everything be in the future.

14 August, 2011

Mood Painter

If I was a mood painter, this week I'd paint : a rainbow-sucker-typhoon

02 August, 2011


If someone ask what I want to be in the future, I usually answer them : "doctor". But honestly, I'm still doubt about that.

The reason I always give that answer is because when I was a kid, I wanted to be a doctor. And until now, my mom used to tell people that being a doctor is my dream since I was a kid.

But people could change their mind, right? And so did I.

Being a doctor (or dentist) is obviously great. When you're graduated from college, it all is clear that you can be a doctor. It's like the path is clear. The salary's also clear. My mom said (as she's a general doctor), specialist doctors get thousands US dollars a month, here in Indonesia.

But, deep inside my heart, I also have some 'crushes' with other subjects or jobs. Such like literature, astronomy, architecture, interior design, and also a job that related with fashion. I also interested to work as a photographer or a film director.

I do have a lot of dreams. Yeah.

For me, it's okay to work as whatever I'll become to be. As long as I love the job. Which is not to be something related with politics, laws and money. I also hate working in such an office.

So, the next question is:
What will I do when I have a job?

First, when I have enough money, I'll build my own business. It might be a gift wrapping store or a boutique or a restaurant or a bakery, or moreover, a hospital. And at the time I have a lot of money, I'll take my mom and dad to Hawaii or somewhere else they'd love to. And I'll go traveling around the world with my family :)

It takes a lot of guts to write this thing here. What if I couldn't make my dreams into reality? What if I died before everything on this post's done?
But then I think, I should write this here. In case, some when I would lost my spirit to catch my dream, or maybe I get bored with my life, I could read this post. And hopefully, this could bring my zest, my keen and all my heart back to reach my dreams.

13 July, 2011

A Minute Before Dozed-Off

It is so hard to full-heartedly-hate the one you dear the most. But once you really hate him/her, it could be worse than your hatred to the enemy.

06 July, 2011

Last Week of Holiday

Time really goes fast, doesn't it? I've been through so many great things on this holiday. Which makes me feel really happy and blessed. Even though my holiday didn't go like what i wanted it to be - which is making money or working out or traveling - but it was still good staying home, had a lot of rest, hanging out with friends and family, watching movies and TV shows, shopping and doing another good things. Finally, I hope your holiday's as good as mine or better.

p.s. I wish i could travel abroad in the end of this year (my birthday!).

18 June, 2011

06 June, 2011

Antara Angan-Angan dan Realita

Angan-angan : Liburan nyari duit

Realita : Makan, nonton, tidur

27 May, 2011

Lomography Redscale!

Using lomography redscale for the first time. Aweeeeee~some B)

Yap! That's me! B)

22 May, 2011

Holiday Seeker


What did you miss? A LOT!
Maker, Mid test, ASC, FB8, Gebyar, drama musikal kelas X & XI IPS dan sumatif yang dipercepat. -stressed-

Dan sekarang sumatif diadakan selama...1 bulan. Iya, 1 bulan. Dengan jadwal yang bolong-bolong diselingin liburan. Ups, maksudnya hari belajar di rumah. Bahkan ada 2 kali yang 2 pelajaran seminggu. Penderitaan dikekang belajar jadi makin lama jadinya :') curse you dearest sumatif!!

Desperately need a holiday now... I really wish for a trip to somewhere faaaar far away from home. Need something to refresh me up.
Or, maybe just a haircut? New hairstyle? It's gonna be my next plan, I guess.

Semangat sumatif, sumatif semangat!!

01 April, 2011

April Fools

Still do not know why people celebrating April Fools with lying to others. Making it a reason to be a jerk-for-a-day.

Hey April, please don't turn me into a fool like you.

31 March, 2011

Fight For Mid Tests!

Please, do pray for me and my brain. May it not exploded until the day when the examination's over.

23 March, 2011

Let My Love Open the Door

Well people keep repeating,
that you will never fall in love.
When everybody keeps retreating,
but you can't seem to get enough.

Let my love open the door,
let my love open the door,
let my love open the door
to your heart.

When everything feels all over,
everybody seems unkind.
I'll give you a four leaf clover,
take all the worries out of your mind.

I have the only key to your heart,
I can stop you from falling apart.
Release yourself from misery,
only one there is gonna set you free
and that's my love, that's my love.

Let my love open the door,
let my love open the door,
let my love open the door,
to your heart.

Tragedy befalls you,
don't let 'em bring you down
Love can cure your problems,
you're so lucky that I'm around.

Let my love open the door,
let my love open the door,
let my love open the door,
to your heart
to your heart
to your heart
to your heart.

Oh God, I just can't stop listening to this song (Sondre Lerche's version), but actually the original version (Pete Townshend's) was great too!

22 March, 2011

That's Rude!

They literally don't know what they're up to. How it affected people around them. Included me. Specially me. So please, just pray for me. And also my soul.

Ps. I hate using she/ he, so I replaced it with 'they'.

21 March, 2011

Sunday, Monday, Jog Jog Jog Jog

Happy holiday!!
Dan coba nyanyiin judul post ini kayak lagunya Rebecca Black yg Friday. Hahahaha

Untuk kedua kalinya berturut-turut gue jalan pagi di tempat jogging deket rumah. Cuman setengah jam sehari sih, tp lumayan keringetan dan kata nyokap bagus buat latihan cardio (jantung). Dan dari kemaren di tempat jogging itu gue liat ada nenek-nenek jalan pagi. Dia pake daster, sendal hotel dan tongkat! Sebelom gue nyampe, nenek-nenek itu udah jalan, dan pas gue selesai dia masih jalan. Mungkin, bisa jadi dia lagi terapi apa, atau emang dia pengen 'hidup sehat'. \m/

Besok sih rencananya, sekali lagi, RENCANANYA, mau jalan pagi lagi. Kalo gak males-_- hoho.
xox, happy Monday!

15 March, 2011


Have you ever felt like me? I feel like.........I don't even know what I feel. It's just empty. Nothing.
I feel like.....there were no feelings here, in my heart.

Feelings gone...

Do you know what I mean? No? So do I.
It's just like it is too complicated and it doesn't belong in here.

And now I feel like a fool.
A fool who thinks she's not a fool by writing this post on her blog.
What if her friends read her blog?
What if he (who she talks about) understands, that the post is talking about him?
What if no one reads the blog?
What if she doesn't care at all?

What if she doesn't continue writing cause she thinks it's lame to write all her feelings on her blog and there's no one who really wanna read her blog?
What if...
What if just stop now?

11 March, 2011

High School Never Ends

agak alay sih, tapi...yaudahlah~

photos taken with diana mini, fuji iso 400

models : rokris xemisshic :D

01 March, 2011

#NyesekAdalah ..........

Saat lo udah berusaha maksimal pake cara yang "bersih", tapi ternyata hasilnya masih kurang dari orang lain yang pake "jalan pintas". Gak adil.

28 February, 2011

Semoga Cepat Sembuh

Guten Morgen! Kemarin gue sakit. Dari pagi kepala rasanya sakit banget, badan juga sakit. Pas diukur sih tempraturnya 37,58. Sempet reflexi, tp masih lemes. Dikasih minum aqua, jus strawberry, jus jambu, sari kurma, pocari sweat sama nyokap. Pas diukur lagi malah 38,48. Yah demam.

Akhirnya hari ini gamasuk sekolah deh :( padahal jaket kelas baru dibagiin hari ini T_T Tadi pagi (tetep) bangun jam 4 pagi. Habis dikasih makanan sama nyokap, mommy daddy pergi deh. Bokap pergi ke Semarang sampe Kamis. Nyokap katanya sih meriksa pasien bentar aja, ntar balik lagi.

Tadi dhila ganti dp jadi foto anak2 xe pake jaket xemisshic (nama kelas). Huhu ngiri. Udah gitu fotoannya pas didepan meja gue lagi (terus kenapa?)

PS: Doain cepet sembuh dong, siapapun yang baca. Hari Rabu gue mau ujian praktek ypm tingkat 6! Doain juga biar masuk PK ya. Amiiiiiin.

26 February, 2011

Disini Bukit Disana Duri

Yak! Anak sok sibuk mau curhat. dikit. :D

Entah kenapa belakangan ini remed banyaaaak banget ya Tuhan T_T bukannya entah kenapa sih, tapi emang pas minggu TF, itu lagi sibuk-sibuknya kaderisasi. Udah pulang sekolah lama, ditambah kader lagi, makin lama deh pulangnya........derita. Tapi, kalo diinget-inget kok jadi kangen sama masa-masa kader ya (bohong(serius deng)) ya gitu deh. Pas kader tuh ngumpul terus sama anak mesis. Apalagi pas disuruh ngafalin anak-anak 1 angkatan. Secara anggotanya 76 gitu. Mamer dikitlah B) Kalo istirahat pasti ngumpul di satu kelas yang rela dipenuhin, didesak-desakin, dikotorin, diinjak-injak dan dicomblangi sama anak mesis cuma buat perkenalan. *berdiri, sebut nama, diliatin* Dan itu jadi mainan baru (buat gue). Tebak nama. Tiap ketemu anak mesis, kapanpun dimanapun, langsung "eeeeeemm.....Nurdin? Nyiur? Nuri?" malu banget kalo salah :p

Yampun jadi kangen~~~~apalagi pas forum. Rasanya deg-degan sampe bangkotan cuma buat angkat tangan doang. Pas udah berani angkat tangan, eh udah beda topik :s malu (lagi). Emang guenya malu-maluin kali ya.Gak cuman nilai yang berkurang, duit juga seret. Hiks. Kamis kemaren udah ngabisin 1 roll film dan tinggallah 1 roll fuji iso 400 lagi di kamar T_T siapapun, kalo baik, beliin film lagi dooong. Mau hunting photo nih pas camping paskib bulan april h0h0h0 ga sabar.

Oh iye, kemaren udah minta Mas Budi (supir yang mirip saiful jamil) buat ke ad***rna, sabang, cuci sama ngescan film. Entah si ipul atau mas2 ad***rnanya yg lemot, malah dicetak sama doi -_- Udah gitu CD-nya gabisa dibuka lagiii huhu derita daku yang supergaptek ini. Palingan besok ataugak senin baru ke sana lagi. AAA sungguh mati aku jadi penasaraaaaan~ *nyanyi dangdut* (salahin Adin yang suka 'numpang' download lagu dangdut di hp gue) Gonna post the photos as soon as cheetah ^^

akhir kata,


04 January, 2011

Happy (belated) New Year!

Sorry for the late new year greetings hehe. I've been so busy on my holiday. No, not a vacation. I was busy wasting my time playing piano, baking cookies and playing games.

Well, I don't wanna tell you about my dumb holiday. But I want to tell you about my past resolutions on 2010.

I made a list of my resolutions and kept it in a pouch in my room. Here's the list :

☑ SMAN 8
☐ Do sports at least once a week
☐ Read the bible every day, and finish the whole bible in 1 year
☐ Got at least 8 out of 10 for my piano score
☐ Write a diary

Sad, huh? I just completed 1 from these 5 resolutions.

For the second point, I barely did sports last year -_- and now I gain weight about 10 pounds!
For the third point, I did it well for the 3 first months. And lately it became harder and harder to accomplish it.
Fourth point. I didn't try my best last year and I got 7,95. Almost!
Fifth point. I did it well for about 2 months and got boring. Cause I'm not a good writer, and when I read my diary, it's a disaster, its a junk.

Forget the excuses, and the fact is I didn't take my last-year-resolutions seriously. For this year, I'll try and do all the best I can and let God do the rest :)

03 January, 2011

Dunia itu Sempit?

Dunia itu sempit? Ya.
Jakarta itu sempit? Banget.

Semua orang pasti pernah ngalamin peristiwa kayak gini : gue punya temen, sebut aja namanya A. Nah, si A ini punya sepupu namanya Z. Dan ternyata, si Z itu temen gue juga yg udah lama ga ketemu.

Kalo dilihat-lihat, hubungan ini bisa digambar jadi sebuah lingkaran. Lingkarannya bervariasi, dari yg kecil kayak contoh tadi sampe yang gedeeee banget.

Ini contoh lingkaran yang lumayan gede :
Ceritanya mulai dari gue. Gue punya temen namanya si A, nah si A ini anaknya eksis dan dia punya temen lain namanya B ; si B punya adek namanya C ; adek C ini punya temen namanya D ; si D ini punya pembantu namanya Ε ; mbak Ε ini dulu sempet kerja sama ibu F ; ibu F punya anjing peliharaan, dikasih namanya G ; anjing G ini dibeli dari toko hewannya enci H ; enci H ini punya kenalan yang namanya I ; si I ini ternyata jualan sayur di komplek rumahnya ibu J ; ibu J nikah sama bapak K ; dan bapak K punya anak namanya L ; si L punya adek, nah adeknya itu namanya M (gue)

Bahkan, lingakaran yang gede ini bisa bergabung sama lingkaran-lingkaran lainnya. Dan kalo digambar, bisa jadi jaring-jaring mirip jaring-jaring makanan gitu.

Contohnya, bisa aja temen gue yang si Z itu ternyata anaknya rukang sayur I. Dan ternyata tukang sayur I ini dulu pacarnya mbak Ε. Whatsoever.

Yah, intinya jaga sikap di mana pun, sama siapa pun karena bisa aja tingkah laku jelek lo bisa nyampe kemana-mana. Bahkan sampe ke tukang sayur dan penjaga toko hewan *ehem