Fingers Crossed

Hi :| It's been a long time,eh?

Well, i got busy preparing for my piano exam and thank goodness, everything went really well, although i almost not allowed to join. Long story. And today i'll have the result. I could only crossing my fingers and hoping for the best.


I'm not gonna change the fact that I am a really bad blogger. So...bye, catch you later :3

Birthday

mixed feelings. the beginning of the day was really disappointing, but in the morning everything seemed better, the afternoon was getting better too. But then the evening come and every happiness was just a blur.

well, whatever. overall, i wanna thank my very best friends who really made me glad today. Nadhila Mischa Miranda and Nindhita Putrie Prabaswari :') you girls are the best...huhu cheesy -_- but i really thank you guys for being there for me whenever i feel sad or confuse or happy or need an advice. you always listen to my problem which is never changed :') lame. well, i need to find a new problem, i guess haha.

so, thank God i was turning 16 today. i've been through so much thing this year. i learned a lot and i hope i could be a better person as i grow older now.

thanks for all your birthday wishes, birthday greetings, handshakes and bad pictures of me as your bbm display picture :) i really appreciate it!


oh, btw i decided to stay in Jakarta this holiday. gonna do some stuffs and decorate my room. wish me luck~

Explosion Box : One of My Holiday Tasks

Hi

I just want to share my current interest in crafts, specially scrapbooks. Well, the fact is I found out about scrapbook for the first time about 3 years ago when I was still in junior high school. I read it from a magazine. And a few days later I found out that one of my friend took a course to make scrapbooks. Since then, I really wanted to learn about it. But I didn't know where to find the supplies, like papers, stickers, and also the tools. My friend told me that she got all the supplies from a scrapbook supplies store which is so far away from my house and school. And because of I got no further information about it & no time to really care (due to the national exam), I forgot about it.

But, a week ago, I was browsing on youtube and suddenly I found a scrapbook video. After few hours of spending my time in front of the computer watching many videos about arts and crafts, I found a video about explosion box. It's a kind of scrapbook but shaped like a box. It's really cool. When you open the lid of the box, the inside box will pop out. That's why it is called explosion box or exploding box. And now I'm dying to make at least one of it. This thing is so going to be on my holiday-activities-list! We'll see if I accomplished it or not.

Catch you later!

I'm Feeling Talkative Right Now

It's 10 pm already. I'm still holding my pencil while biting its tip sometimes. My eyes are down to the paper full of circle equations and charts and lot of numbers. Yet my brain can't understand any single word written there..

It's been a pretty busy week. I skip 3 days of school in the past 2 weeks for teacher's day preparation and other stuff. And in class, I mostly lost focus. I did some crafts like pop-up papers or drawing stupid things instead of studying. I guess I lost my learning enthusiasm. *sigh* Even today. Whereas the exam week'll be starting tomorrow. Huh.

Enough of school bullshits.

So, btw my birthday is about 12 days ahead. My parents were asking me about what present I want this year. It's such a tradition in my family that the birthday person could ask for anything s/he wants for her/his birthday. For the first time in my life, I haven't decided what my birthday present will be.

Yeah, I'm that type of kids who really excited about their birthday. Who loves presents and suprises and birthday celebrations and also the attentions people give that day. I'm not an attention seeker, but it's great having people wishing you all the best and being very nice to you, right? And it only happen once in a year, that's why I'm so excited about it.

About my birthday gift, I took some times to think about it, and I ended at some options.
1.) Polaroid camera
2.) SLR fisheye/wide angle lens
3.) Another lomography camera
4.) Lots of money to buy clothes
5.) Anything fun to do on the holiday. Maybe a trip to Karimun Jawa? Or somewhere else?

I don't know, 3 of my 5 wishes are related to photography hehe. Well, I'm so interested about photography and crafts lately. Even I already planned if I stayed at home on holiday I'll spend a lot of money to buy crafts tools and make an exploding box album or something like dried flowers for my room decoration. I watched many videos about them on youtube and it showed a lot of fun & creative things to make.

Well, I guess I'm talking too much here hehe. It's 11 pm already. Time flies so fast, doesn't it? Toodles!

Buang-buang Waktu~

Udah jam 11an tapi gatau kenapa lagi mood banget buat posting di blog. Kayaknya belakangan ini gue makin nggak tau waktu deh. Bahkan lusa ada ulangan biologi & matematika, tapi hari ini nggak nyicil apa-apa. Besok positif sks (sistem kebut semalam) nih -_- Bukannya nggak mau belajar sih, tapi kondisinya nggak mendukung, gimana dong. Haha alesan banget.

Tapi emang bener! Tadi abis pulang dari bimbel malah ke mall nyari sepatu buat sekolah gara-gara peraturan baru, yang cewek nggak boleh pake flat shoes yang entah kenapa diterjemahin jadi sepatu cantik.. Padahal flat shoes gue udah super duper gembel dan nggak pantes dibilang sepatu 'cantik'. Mungkin emang udah waktunya juga sih ganti sepatu -_- Eh kenapa jadi ngomongin sepatu..

Balik lagi ke minggu kelam buat otak gue. Keliatannya minggu ini tuh bakalan capek banget. Semua kelas XI ulangan biologi, kimia sama matematika dalam seminggu. Sampe ada temen gue yang bilang : marathon tf mipa. Mungkin kedengerannya biasa aja, tapi dengan jadwal matematika dan biologi yang dijadiin sehari dan materinya yg belibet, semuanya jadi terdengar suram. Jadi, nggak salah juga kan hari ini nyantai dulu, biar besok otaknya masih seger & siap diforsir. Alesan lagi.

Yaudah, ini gue baru selesai mandi dan mau tidur, daripada waktu yang kebuang makin banyak, postnya segini aja. Dah.

Yeah, I'm in a such whatsoever mood. Bcause people keep being annoying when I just want to be in silence. How could I deal with it? (۳˚Д˚)۳

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And better be replaced by a word : "bullshit".

Life's Short

I just wanna type a really short post cs I'm in the middle of a Spongebob Squarepants' series hahaha. Well, here I go...


I guess the world's now showing off its rage unto us human. As I can see, so many people around me died in this year. We got punished. Not the people who died. It's us. We got punished by losing the ones we love.

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And this also made me realized how close all of us from the death. Nobody could tell when our end is, where it is and how will it be. We should be prepared for everything. So, live your life to the fullest for we will never know when our time will come.

Cao.

Tout Doucement

I was kinda surprised when i saw your blog. Never expected you'll write something there, knowing you're such a lazy-ass -_- And moreover, for me.

So, i just wanna say, i know that it is the best for us. But I don't really know about how i feel inside now. Have i moved on? I can't figure it out...
You had a life. And I don't want to stand in your way, blocking your dreams up.
I'll just wish us all the best in life. Cheerio.

Last night I couldn't sleep. And the internet connection went down. So then I putted my earphones on and turn on the music. Sondre Lerche's Stupid Memory was played. The song's lyrics might not fit really well with what I felt or experienced, but this song has been accompanying me through hard times these few days. And now I feel much more better than 2 weeks ago. I am relieved.
I hope I'll found somebody who truly understands me and could help me making good decisions in life. I know I will :) well, thanks ceiling for tonight, you've been a really great friend. I should go now. Gonna face the exam week. Wish me a good luck!

Bittersweet

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Have a curious day :)

Too Boring Means Double Posts Today!

Hi. I'm pretty boring here. Got nothing to do & am not sleepy yet. Well, blame me for having a nap at 6 in the evening 3-|

So, in case of my boringness (that's not an exist word, I know), I'll just write what's in my mind right now.

Okay, now I'm laying in my bed while listening to Sondre Lerche's Say It All. Such a good mood booster song it is. Reminds me of March the 5th 2011, exactly at Java Jazz. The first show I watched that day. With a really good friend, teehee :J good old time...

Now I really wish for Doraemon's "pintu kemana saja". I wanna go back to the past and have a look at the good old times again. And fix all the mistakes I've done in the past.

But, in Doraemon's story, when you changed your past, your future'll be changed, too. And I'm happy enough with my today's life. Soooo, on second thought I don't want to have "pintu kemana saja". #labil


Enough said. I guess.
See you later, ppl~

Happy Holiday

So i found this website befunky.com and edited some photos. It's a kinda fun thing to do when you don't have anything else to do *sigh*





Happy Holiday, people! And have fun with your vacation!

If I...

If I had doraemon's magic pocket I'd take the "pintu kemana saja". I'd have a peek on my future. For what will I do, where will I live, whom will I be with and how will everything be in the future.

Mood Painter

If I was a mood painter, this week I'd paint : a rainbow-sucker-typhoon

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If someone ask what I want to be in the future, I usually answer them : "doctor". But honestly, I'm still doubt about that.

The reason I always give that answer is because when I was a kid, I wanted to be a doctor. And until now, my mom used to tell people that being a doctor is my dream since I was a kid.

But people could change their mind, right? And so did I.

Being a doctor (or dentist) is obviously great. When you're graduated from college, it all is clear that you can be a doctor. It's like the path is clear. The salary's also clear. My mom said (as she's a general doctor), specialist doctors get thousands US dollars a month, here in Indonesia.

But, deep inside my heart, I also have some 'crushes' with other subjects or jobs. Such like literature, astronomy, architecture, interior design, and also a job that related with fashion. I also interested to work as a photographer or a film director.

I do have a lot of dreams. Yeah.

For me, it's okay to work as whatever I'll become to be. As long as I love the job. Which is not to be something related with politics, laws and money. I also hate working in such an office.

So, the next question is:
What will I do when I have a job?

First, when I have enough money, I'll build my own business. It might be a gift wrapping store or a boutique or a restaurant or a bakery, or moreover, a hospital. And at the time I have a lot of money, I'll take my mom and dad to Hawaii or somewhere else they'd love to. And I'll go traveling around the world with my family :)

It takes a lot of guts to write this thing here. What if I couldn't make my dreams into reality? What if I died before everything on this post's done?
But then I think, I should write this here. In case, some when I would lost my spirit to catch my dream, or maybe I get bored with my life, I could read this post. And hopefully, this could bring my zest, my keen and all my heart back to reach my dreams.

A Minute Before Dozed-Off

It is so hard to full-heartedly-hate the one you dear the most. But once you really hate him/her, it could be worse than your hatred to the enemy.

Last Week of Holiday

Time really goes fast, doesn't it? I've been through so many great things on this holiday. Which makes me feel really happy and blessed. Even though my holiday didn't go like what i wanted it to be - which is making money or working out or traveling - but it was still good staying home, had a lot of rest, hanging out with friends and family, watching movies and TV shows, shopping and doing another good things. Finally, I hope your holiday's as good as mine or better.


p.s. I wish i could travel abroad in the end of this year (my birthday!).

Good Old Days

Antara Angan-Angan dan Realita

Angan-angan : Liburan nyari duit

Realita : Makan, nonton, tidur

Lomography Redscale!

Using lomography redscale for the first time. Aweeeeee~some B)

Yap! That's me! B)